gains and looses

gains and losses
His back was turned
His head was low and I couldn't see for the lights were out inside of me

Abba
Abba have you forgotten me?
I tapped and I tapped at the small the small of his back for his shoulders were too high for me to reach

I cried and I cried
But he wouldn't hear my reasons why
Why won't you listen to what I have to say

I whined
Smitten by my ways
Wrapped in a crocked path of lies and sin
Covered in my own deceit

I fought hard not to believe that all of this was inside of me

I never asked to be forgiven, but forgiven was all he would say

I snatched it
grasping it with my hands

I took it and ran shouting

Thank you for a new beginning